The Most Dreaded Blissful Moment

I haven't blogged all summer long. My lazy ass is in bed ordering shit off of eBAY all day long. If not that I'm eating ice cream out of the container, making my self a deep fried tortilla hot dog. If not that... I'm with my boyfriend who I love so much, making him cook, drive, and shop with my lazy ass, though I have no money to shop with. I gained weight to much of my surprise (not a bad thing) and I am just so boring now a days. I haven't hung out much with any of my friends, cause if I'm not working, they are. Or I'm just too lazy and I believe we'll still be friends regardless =) Nonetheless....

So are we there yet? We've been dreading this moment. The moment when all our closest friends from high school go there separate ways. Achieving their dreams in their new schools. But we're here. We're finally here at the dreadful week of good-byes.

But it's quite funny. My two close friends moved to San Francisco for school last week. And there were no good-byes and no tears. Maybe it's like that with those special friends you know will be there forever. Maybe it's like that when you know you'll DEFINITELY keep in touch with and will never loose friendship with. So, if I don't say bye to you, take it as a good thing. Maybe...there is a chance we won't talk as much. But just know that we do have that chance of being friends forever and ever.

4 more weeks for those UCers & CalPolyers that are so excited and anxious to start school. Dorm shopping was fun, and I think everyone should do it, even if you don't live in a dorm. But that means 4 more weeks to spend in your most comfortable environment...home. I'm super scared, anxious, and depressed all at the same time. Is that even possible? I guess it is NOW.

So here we go again. Saying good-bye to yet another school, and saying hello to a brand new start.

A Friend Worth Everything

And finally the day came. Steph's cotillion was on the 18th and the whole day was just soexciting.

She woke up early cause she called me around 8. We left around 930 to run some errands and at 10 I took her to Bobby K's to get her hair did. It took about an hour or soand she looked gorgeous already. Came home around 11 and we started hair and make up. It was fun chillin` with all the ladies, cause they're cutesey. At 2pm, the boys joined us and around 3 we went to get Baskin Robins cause Sarah was cravin'. We came back and up and left.
We went to the Milpitas Community Center and we had half and hour before we were allowed in. So we took pictures and then me, Daisy, Tony, Linh, and Chels went back to Daisy's to get her CD for salsa. Came back, and practiced.
630 rolled around and we got fitted and everyone looked smashin! We took pictures with the debutant, who may I add, looked like a princess. Then the party started, and all the practices were worth it. I made new friends, had a lot of fun at the parlay, and reallized my partner is the best.

STEPHANIEASIATICOGALIGUIS If I could make a speech to you, this is it. Thank you is all I can really say. Since Freshman year, we've been good friends, never the best of friends, until now. You are really the best of the best. I've told you things that you've kept under lock and key. We've shared really fun moments together, and they will always be cherished. You've been my "twin" and we honestly have that twin connection =) College is coming, and we're going our separate ways after 4 years. I want you to know that I love you dearly. There's nothing in the world that I will trade for our friendship but I would give up everything to keep it. You are an amazing girl and seeing you at your Cotillion was wonderful. You looked so beautiful and you are all grown up. No matter what path we stroll on in the future, I know that we will meet back up because we, as friends, were definitely meant to be. I love you, bestie.

The World of Darkness

I'm sitting out on my balcony with the sweet sound of serenity surrounding me. And I'm thinking "I love my life. It's THE life. But I hate the world?" Sound weird? I mean, violence is everywhere. You watch the news in the morning, and something probably happened over night. And pollution. People say they wanna live on this planet, this beautiful world, yet they trash it and make our children's children's children's children's live in what will soon be called HELL. Hatred surrounds us, our children are learning the darkness of the world faster than we did.

I mean, I honestly always told myself to fuck what everyone else thought and only think of myself. Just live my life. And I only started doing it when I got outta that hell whole High School. I love my life and I'm livin it, baby, you best believe it. I don't care what the hell you think or anyone else thinks. If you have an opinion, please be my guest and do what you like with it.

But does it get you far in life? Talking about me? I remember someone told me that he heard I broke up with my "Best Friend Ex Boyfriend" cause I was cheatin' on him. At first I was like, "What the fuck? Who would say that?" But then I realized they were talkin' and makin' up their own stories cause they couldn't get the truth outta no one. Which is probably what happened cause I only told some people what really went down. When I was thinking about this whole thing, I was gonna write to all you people who believed it and started to spread it. No. I won't cause that'll just say that I'm weak and I wanna tell you my personal things and I have no self dignity. But I do. My shit will stay my shit. So if you wanna believe I cheated on my boyfriend, you do it. I am honored to have stories made up about me. And it will be you who will make me infamous.